Turning corners

Is this normal? Like is any of this how it is? Or is it just me? I am not expecting the normal from me or anything to do with my life. Abnormal is the expectation. Dysfunction is the the norm. But seriously, going through these cyclical periods of low times - are first signs of a breakage in the system? Or maybe that the breakage was always there and I was muscling it through all these years. And now, like Hannah Gadsby says - I just identify as tired.

Corner. It is about being in a corner. And how I am going to scramble out of this one. Why do I increasingly feel like I am grasping on the ends?