Re-booting

So the attempt has been to start writing again. Since Ma died, it just wouldn’t come. Words, expression, which I prided myself on, just wouldn’t happen.

Rather, expression would happen, but — well the last couple of blog posts were a result of that. Multiple word documents were “unsaved/ discarded” because they just rambled on and on about the same things — repeatedly, obsessively. Much like my dreams — still.

But the attempts must be done. Both my husband and father attribute super human qualities to me — which has its own challenges. Human failings, and above all, acknowledging them, becomes a challenge. Each time I said, I may need some external help, they said, let it pass, give it time.

So, once again, I will need to get out of this myself. I am hoping.